Daily Truth

So this morning I got a call for an acting audition. To my dismay I had to decline the opportunity because of my financial situation. Money is so tight right now I can’t even afford a Metro card and instead have to stay home doing absolutely nothing. But the missed opportunity is besides the point here. It’s what I did after that made me realize something.

The night before I was looking over some Shakespearean monologues just for the hell of it and I saved them on my computer. Never in my life had I understood what his characters were saying like last night. Anyway, this morning I stayed in my bed with my eyes open and I could feel the frustration slowly taking over me. I thought to myself, “If I had to perform those monologues, especially the ones where I had to demonstrate anger of any sort, I could use what I am feeling now to nail it!”

And it hit me at that moment: I was made to be an actor. I was given the gift of being able to store emotion and use it for spoken word.

I Don't Want to Give Birth to a Barbarian

Anyone who knows me knows I can be like a Mother Hen, but when it comes down to it: I think I am terrified of having children and there are a number of reasons to this, but the main one being…



I AM TERRIFIED OF BEING STUCK WITH A CHILD THAT ACTS LIKE A BARBARIAN


Allow me to explain this because there might be a parent reading this and cursing me out right about now and if not then that’s great. Less stress for me.
Alright, let me break it down for you:

1) Although I have two older sisters, I was raised as an only child
2) I had to grow up super fast, so there was no time to act, well crazy or bad
3) I HATE screaming, whether it be from an adult, teenager, or child.

So with those three things in mind, it’s only natural that I don’t want a barbarian child. Now barbarian probably sounds like a harsh word, but let’s take a look at the definition of barbarian. According to dictionary.com (gosh I feel like I am writing a research paper) barbarian is defined as an uncivilized or crude person. And crude means not mature or lacking refinement.

Now I know children are young and whatnot, but for me, once they hit a certain age they need to stop with that crying for everything crap. I don’t mind babies, but it is once children start becoming toddlers that I begin to cringe. And let’s not even get me started about elementary school years because by the time you are 8 or 10, for me, you need to get some maturity.

When I am on the bus or train, but especially the bus and I hear toddlers screaming and whining, I want to jump out of the window. The nightmare kicks in: having to deal with THAT on a daily basis. Yes, children are blessings and bring joy, BUT that joy comes at a price.

So, with all this being said, I conclude by telling you, the reader, that I NEVER EVER want to bare a Barbarian Child!

I WANT CUPCAKES!

So I wanted cupcakes today, unfortunately, I had my craving AFTER I had spent hours outside and was finally comfortable indoors. So I didn’t feel like walking all the way to the nearest pastry store.
So I came up with an awesome idea: I would make a cake. I knew my mom had some cake mix in the cupboard. So I get up and go to find the different flavors she had.
SCORE! I find 3 boxes, two of Lemon and one of Chocolate. I was soooooooooo happy. Then I flip the box over and check the expiration date. This was my reaction to the dates stamped on the bottom: -_____________________-
So now I have no cake or any type of pastry to eat.
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REASON, SEASON, OR LIFETIME?

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty; to provide you with guidance and support; to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

~Unknown

My UAlbany Visit

So today I went to visit the university that I will be attending in the fall: The University at Albany!

I was really excited to take the journey there. So let me take you on the journey of my day today.

First off my mother was traveling with me, and this woman made sure I woke up on time and we got out of the house on time. I had to wake up SUPER early (4:30 in the morning) to make sure that we left the house at a quarter to 6. Our first destination was Penn Station where we would leave on an 8:15 train up to Albany.

I was really excited. For one, I have never ridden on an Amtrak Train before and I had never really traveled outside of the city much. I had only been to Boston twice, once as a baby and the second time as a 10 or 11 year-old.

Anyway, surprisingly, as early as it was, I was alert. Normally I would have been sleepy and zombie-like.

Fast forward to getting on the train. I am one for scenery and nature, so to see the Hudson River and miles and miles of trees was great for me. It was a change from just seeing concrete and high-rises.

After two hours and fifteen minutes, we arrive at the Albany-Rensselaer station and take a cab to the uptown campus. While on route to the campus, I could help but feel comfortable with knowing I’d be living in Albany for the next for years of my life. I have always been a city girl and moving to a smaller place compared to NYC was comforting.

Arriving at UAlbany’s Collin’s Circle, I was blown away. First off, the architecture was amazing. There was no greater way of being welcomed than seeing one of UAlbany’s famous fountains a few steps away from me. Secondly, the silence was so peaceful.

When applying for colleges, I knew I wanted a place that had tranquility yet a place that also was vibrant and full of life. UAlbany fit that criteria. Of course, it is the summer, so not all 18,000 students or so were there, but from what I could gather, it is a safe and warm environment.

The staff was really helpful and the tour guide was really friendly and full of information.
One of the things that really struck me about the campus was how it was designed. Everything is centrally located which makes it easy when traveling to classes and to the dorm quads. Also, the services provided at the campus were plenty and incredibly convenient.

The last stop my mother and I went to before leaving was the book store, which sold more than just books. You could fine school supplies, things for the dorms, food, and of course UAlbany sweatshirts, T-Shirts, etc. I left with a sweater, shirt, and planner.

Honestly, I have never been excited to start school, I have never been to eager to begin. This excludes high school because I was pretty excited for that since it was a performing arts school.

I can say already that I am proud to be an incoming freshman at the University at Albany. I can already feel the school spirit.

First Day of Summer

So Today is the first day of Summer. I must say, over the years I have grown to love the season more and more. I used to be a fall and winter lover, but it isn't until this year that I learned to appreciate the beauty of summer. I love that everything is in full bloom and the sun is usually shining. Even when the sun is not shining, I enjoy the summer rain and the occasional storm now and then. The only downside to all of this: the heat. I absolutely cannot STAND it. Oh well, you cannot have everything. With all that being said, I close this post by saying that I feel as if I have recently been blessed with more wisdom. It feels as if my third eye has been cleansed. I can look at things from a somewhat fresh perspective. Tomorrow I head to Albany to take a look at SUNY Albany, the university I will be attending in the fall. I am very excited and cannot wait!